I think I slept weird because my neck hurts so much like I can’t turn my head quickly or rly at all without it hurting v____v who’s comin over tonight 2 give me a massage hahhaha
phew, I struggle with this a lot. p much like, when I feel like I can’t do it or like my work isn’t going to go anywhere, I just kinda think of why I make my work. I think abt what I’m tryna create for the universe and that pushes me a lot. Like, thinking about who I make my work for and who I’m tryna reach out to. And I just like, try to stay positive. Art is hard, and I try my best! This is shit advice but I hope u feel what I’m sayin ♡
First of all, I want you to know that I’m very proud of you. What you’re doing takes so much strength and determination, and I truly applaud you, because sobriety is beyond tough. I don’t know if relapse is inevitable, but it happens. It happened to me. I relapsed a week into my sobriety, which is actually something I’ve never told anyone before. I had a terrible day, I was feeling really triggered and terrible, and I had a few drinks. Anyways, I’ve never done any hard drugs so I don’t know how applicable my advice is, but here goes:
Sobriety is really difficult, and it takes a lot of mental strength to go through daily life when you’re recovering from a substance abuse problem. Don’t hang with people who make this journey more difficult, allow yourself to stay in and skip going out if that feels triggering for you, Basically like, PROTECT YOURSELF. Whenever I’m feelin like I’m having a weak moment, I sit down and think about why I became sober in the first place, what my life would be like if I hadn’t stopped drinking, and what my sobriety means to my wellbeing.
I’m sending out good vibes to you though, b. You are so strong, and if you ever need anyone to hear you out, I’m here for you. Stay strong. Stay brilliant. You are a star.